Last notice….

I feel like I owe some explanations to the people I’m leaving behind. Some of you actually asked to know why I’m leaving and it’s just a matter of respect to tell you.

About me : I’m a 21 years old cook, I’ve been living on my own since I was 17. I’m actually engaged with a sweet 30 years old man. We’ve been living together for 3 years now. I work in a resto-bar, they pay me 8$ per hour and I’ve been working there for 4 years.

Now, let me tell you how life has been treating me since I’ve reached 21 years old (june 18th)

June 18th : Some clowns that I barely know did an xtc bad trip in my back yard.
June 23th : My sister leaves for BC Canada with some friends for the summer.
June 29th : I find out I’m pregnant.
July 9th : My sister calls from BC : She had met a guy there (hells angels drug dealer who just got out of jail) and she’s not coming back because she wants to get married.
July 13th : I get an abortion (you Christian people if you think I’m going to hell…think again)
July 26th : a dear friend of mine gets dumped by his girlfriend. He tries to commit suicide and falls in a weird coma. He’s now doped on valium and seems to be ok.
August 28th : My mom, dad and little brother leave for China (for 2 years). My mother called me last week : She caught something there and she’s pretty sick as we speak.
August 30th : My parent’s place (and cottage) gets robbed. They took for 12 000$ worth of snow board equipment, computer pieces, video game machinery and random tv dvd stuff…
September 10 : I get raped at a staff party
September 18th : My sister calls from BC : The guy she met left without a word…with the dogs, car and money. She’s now stuck at the other end of Canada, alone and without a dime. We’re figuring out a way to get her back her as we speak. She’s devastated and so am I.
September 19th : My cousin gets thrown out of his house by his ex boss ( coming back from Atlanta unexpected) He has 2 days to move all of his stuff in my 2 bedrooms apartment.
September 21th : He starts moving….my place looks like a junkyard.
September 24th : Done with the moving, I get really sick from exhaustion and I’m on a illness vacation from work.
September 24th : (same day 8:00 am) I get a note from a friend on DA : Some people love me enough to start a live journal forum about me being a lazy ass art thieve. They bash on me for a couple of page. (note that I usually draw to relieve the pressure of my daily stresses….I wont do it again for a long time. )
September 26th : I’m really sick (pulmonary infection) and my boss just called to tell me he really needs me to replace some other guys who has a psychiatric appointment he can’t miss. So much for recovery.

Some random fact :
-My best friend is HIV positive
-My mother-in-law is schizophrenic
-I’ve got a potentially dangerous heart condition
-My older brother died when I was young
-I’m usually very kind, respectful, and understanding
-The boy I had a crush on when I was 16 got killed in a ski trip.
-I can’t deal with stress very well.

Now….for those I might owe art to ( tattoo designs, album covers or trades….) I’m sorry. I can’t draw right now and I’m taking a long break from anything artistic. I know I’ve failed you all but I really need to get myself together. For those who owe me art or money (you know who you are) keep it, I don’t care. I’m working myself sick right now and I have enough money to pay the bills…

Advice : People are mostly hypocritical and disrespectful : They will backstab you until you realize it and then, they’ll probably deny it all…blaming you for being so dramatic and hard to take. I wasn’t born that way, people made me like this. I had a lot of friend here on DA and if you guys ever want to contact me, I’ll be more than happy to talk and share with you ( rave_jenny@hotmail.com) For all the others, keep on with your lives and try never to harm people. Just get your head out of where I’m thinking and realize that some things are just plain rude. Analyze and ask yourself before you do something : Is there a better, less harmful way to do or say that ? If not, you’re not looking hard enough.

Take care guys, have a nice day !
-Gen (last time on DA)